So I’d like to discuss this sexy piece of pinup art I got from @Inkrend recently. (Side note: This is the SFW version – my furry art galleries have the NSFW version.)
First a little bit of history. Back when I was foxing around on Second Life, I got introduced to ‘taurs and found them somewhat fascinating. Researching them led to the chakat universe, which took some of the basic concepts of Star Trek and re-spun them with a furry bent.
The chakat race is a race of feline hermaphrodite taurs, with a primarily female appearance, created by Bernard Doove a.k.a. Goldfur. I believe this was among the first of the “original” furry species to really take off in popularity- which eventually led to others such as Sergals and Dutch Angel Dragons.
Anyways, I thought a bit about what I would be like if I was a chakat, and decided to actually create hir to “reserve” the character and name. I ended up fully embracing hir for probably close to a year as my fursona, before awakening to dragonhood.
A bit over a year ago I revived hir to be a character in a story I had written, and establish a place for hir in the chakat universe. This led to a few more art pieces, which I’ve previously shared and a renewed personal interest in hir as a character.
While the previous art pieces I’ve gotten have been great, a minor pet peeve has been that they’ve never gotten hir bust size quite right. Shi is supposed to have fairly large breasts, but none of hir depictions have really shown it well. This one, on the other hand, does.
Another thing I like about this is that I get an impression of maleness as well, which is very fitting for a hermaphrodite in general, and hir in specific, as shi tends to lean more towards hir male side. It may just be me, or it may not have been intentional, but combined with the fact it actually got hir bustline right this is the best depiction of hir yet!
This actually also inspired a re-evaluation as well of how I’ve been representing myself. I know there are some that have multiple characters, while others have an identity tied to a single representation of themselves. I myself fall into the latter category, with my dragon self being in all ways a reflection of my inner being.
Basically, I considered that if I had gotten this picture earlier, would it have made a difference? At heart, I still believe that I am dragon, and after consideration, I don’t believe I have the right mindset to truly be a chakat, unlike some others I know out there. Chakats are naturally polyamorous – they have multiple mates at any given time, and jealousy is something that is not natural to them. As hermaphrodites, they are also naturally bi, though they may have individual preferences towards one side or the other, much as single-gendered folk have preferences for certain parts of the body.
As much as I could see the above art representing me, and with how aware I am of my feminine side, I unfortunately fit neither of those qualifications. To start with, I had the opportunity to explore how I felt about both genders online by playing a herm, and male anatomy just doesn’t excite me. Herms that I have found attractive have been mostly due to their female attributes.
Secondly, I am also definitely not polyamorous. If I consider someone my mate, they are mine and I would not feel comfortable about them screwing other people – though to be fair this goes both ways. I also would not feel comfortable screwing someone else while being in a relationship. I don’t have any problem with open mateships in and of themselves; they’re just not for me.
Chakats are also fairly even-tempered. While I can be in general, I’ve gotten rather angry at times. My temper is overall far more draconic than it is chakat.
All that aside, I could see myself playing hir online again at some point, but ultimately shi is a much smaller aspect of my being than my dragon self, and barring being more active on Second Life again, there’s not much of an opportunity for me to do much besides write about hir or get art. If the opportunity presents itself though, shi’s definitely on my short list, and I would love to be able to play hir in a Traveller campaign or something similar.
And I finally have a picture I can point to without qualifications and say “That’s hir!”